Happy World Mental Health Day Let’s talk about mental health - in honor of World Mental Health Day today. This is a super important thing we all need to focus on with ourselves. Being aware of your mental health is definitely something that you should keep up with. My mental health lately has been shit . Not working and having zero income with bills is really hitting me, hard. I’ve been looking for jobs, I really have. And applying! I just think I can do better. I can do more and apply for more. I'm going to have to settle for something in the meantime. I had a MAJOR breakdown earlier this week. I found myself bawling my eyes out on my bathroom floor. And I mean BAWLING. Like, ugly crying, hyperventilating and completely hysterical. What is wrong with me? What am I doing? This isn’t me, at all. I’ve been in this slump and it just keeps getting worse. I just really need to focus on myself and getting my shit together. I’ve been forcing myself out of bed and for
I never know a good way to start out, so I'm just going to jump right in - here goes! I woke up SUPER tired this morning, maybe it had something to do with the wine I had last night? Probably not though. š
I still got out of bed and got dressed for the gym. I find myself feeling pretty guilty when I miss a day at the gym, and I HATE feeling guilty.
It has been 5 months - ONLY 5 months since I've started my journey. Well, technically I started going to the gym a year ago when they first opened, but I REALLY started focusing on things in January of this year. My trainer (Eddie Brooks - check him out!) started an eight week 'No Excuses' challenge. This is where everything began.
I started this challenge weighing my heaviest ever. Two-Hundred and Sixty Five point Eight pounds and my waist measured Forty-Seven inches. WOW. It's really hard to sit here and think, I did that to myself and had nobody to blame but me. I couldn't believe that I let things go that far. Starting this challenge was the best thing to happen to me. I won't lie, I was extremely nervous and super intimidated. I noticed some people who were in the challenge and thought to myself - why are they here? I was definitely the biggest person there. Everyone has their own thing though and their own reasons for wanting to participate in the challenge.
As the time went by, I started to get to know a lot of the challenge participants - who I now like to call my fit fam. šŖš Everyone was so encouraging and inspirational. As I kept hearing how good I was doing and proud I was making everyone, I kept wanting to thrive and do more. The encouragement was helping me get through. I kept seeing the scale move down but I was having a hard time seeing the results myself. Everybody else around me was noticing and that was enough to keep me going.
After the final weigh-in of the challenge, I was happy to see my results: down twenty-six point eight pounds and I lost six inches off of my waist. The real part that hit me though, was seeing the before and after pictures... HOLY SHIT! See for yourselves!
Until next time,
XOXO, M♡
You're awesome boo boo! Keep up the good work! Proud of you. Xoxo
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