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It's okay not to be okay.

Happy World Mental Health Day Let’s talk about mental health -  in honor of World Mental Health Day today. This is a super important thing we all need to focus on with ourselves. Being aware of your mental health is definitely something that you should keep up with.  My mental health lately has been shit . Not working and having zero income with bills is really hitting me, hard. I’ve been looking for jobs, I really have. And applying! I just think I can do better. I can do more and apply for more. I'm going to have to settle for something in the meantime. I had a MAJOR breakdown earlier this week. I found myself bawling my eyes out on my bathroom floor. And I mean BAWLING. Like, ugly crying, hyperventilating and completely hysterical. What is wrong with me? What am I doing? This isn’t me, at all. I’ve been in this slump and it just keeps getting worse. I just really need to focus on myself and getting my shit together.   I’ve been forcing myself out of bed and for

You can turn off the sun, but I’m still gonna shine.

Hello Beautifuls! šŸ’‹ It’s been a while! Sorry about that. Life got a little crazy. Who am I kidding - a  LOT  crazy. Apologies in advance if this post is a little long, just want you guys up to date on everything. šŸ˜‰ Life has its ups and downs, that's  for sure . Some days are much better than others while the others you just feel like you can’t make it anymore and want to give up.  Staying positive  all the time can be exhausting. The thing is, you have to give it your all when you feel like you can’t give it anything else. There’s always strength somewhere in there to keep going.  ALWAYS - that's a promise. *I’ve recently been introduced to Pinot Noir (currently sipping on) and realized it’s a pretty good de-stressor.* So, where do I begin with my crazy past couple of months? Let’s start with the not-so-goods. The biggest (hopefully not dumbest) thing - I quit my job. (As of like, a week and a half ago)  Just like that.  I decided it was too much and just walke

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It's okay not to be okay.

Happy World Mental Health Day Let’s talk about mental health -  in honor of World Mental Health Day today. This is a super important thing we all need to focus on with ourselves. Being aware of your mental health is definitely something that you should keep up with.  My mental health lately has been shit . Not working and having zero income with bills is really hitting me, hard. I’ve been looking for jobs, I really have. And applying! I just think I can do better. I can do more and apply for more. I'm going to have to settle for something in the meantime. I had a MAJOR breakdown earlier this week. I found myself bawling my eyes out on my bathroom floor. And I mean BAWLING. Like, ugly crying, hyperventilating and completely hysterical. What is wrong with me? What am I doing? This isn’t me, at all. I’ve been in this slump and it just keeps getting worse. I just really need to focus on myself and getting my shit together.   I’ve been forcing myself out of bed and for

If It Doesn't Challenge You, It Doesn't Change You

Hello Beautifuls! ♡šŸ˜˜  It's been a little while.. I won't lie, I wrote this post last week and am just now getting to publishing. I'm still sick. šŸ˜­ This week has been a nightmare. I'm pretty sure that I'm SLOWLY getting over the plague. That was absolutely terrible. I won't lie, I'm quite a baby when I'm sick and slightly over dramatic. šŸ¤· I can't help it - I HATE getting sick! So, my back has been bothering me for a while, I decided to go see someone to take a look at it. Turns out it's my hip, not my back. He fixed me up, gave me some stretches and exercises to do and sent me on my way. He also told me no running. For at least a week. Okay, cool - I don't like running anyways! As it turns out, I MIGHT like running a little bit. Maybe it's the fact that I was told not to do something that makes me want to do it even more. I'm signed up for the Oberun 5K next Friday, and you can bet I'll be running in that! In about a

Keep Your Squats Low and Your Standards High

I never know a good way to start out, so I'm just going to jump right in - here goes! I woke up SUPER tired this morning, maybe it had something to do with the wine I had last night? Probably not though. šŸ˜… I still got out of bed and got dressed for the gym. I find myself feeling pretty guilty when I miss a day at the gym, and I HATE feeling guilty. It has been 5 months - ONLY 5 months since I've started my journey. Well, technically I started going to the gym a year ago when they first opened, but I REALLY started focusing on things in January of this year. My trainer (Eddie Brooks - check him out!) started an  eight week 'No Excuses' challenge. This is where everything began. I started this challenge weighing my heaviest ever. Two-Hundred and Sixty Five point Eight pounds and my waist measured Forty-Seven inches . WOW. It's really hard to sit here and think, I did that to myself and had nobody to blame but me. I couldn't believe that I let thing