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It's okay not to be okay.

Happy World Mental Health Day Let’s talk about mental health -  in honor of World Mental Health Day today. This is a super important thing we all need to focus on with ourselves. Being aware of your mental health is definitely something that you should keep up with.  My mental health lately has been shit . Not working and having zero income with bills is really hitting me, hard. I’ve been looking for jobs, I really have. And applying! I just think I can do better. I can do more and apply for more. I'm going to have to settle for something in the meantime. I had a MAJOR breakdown earlier this week. I found myself bawling my eyes out on my bathroom floor. And I mean BAWLING. Like, ugly crying, hyperventilating and completely hysterical. What is wrong with me? What am I doing? This isn’t me, at all. I’ve been in this slump and it just keeps getting worse. I just really need to focus on myself and getting my shit together.   I’ve been forcing myself out of bed and for

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HELLOOOO!

I hope everyone is doing great! Last weekend was a BIG weekend for me! Like, huge! Let's rewind a bit - back to Labor Day, real quick. I hope everyone had a good holiday! I spent
my day at my moms house hanging out with her, my sister and stepdad. Us girls were outside enjoying the weather when my stepdad came outside and asked to take mine and my sister's pictures from our shoulders up, okayyyyy then...? He said it was for an early Christmas present. I asked him if it was for a passport šŸ¤£ sadly, it was not - no travelling for me any time soon. 

Fast forward → → →

To him asking us if we wanted the Christmas present early. Me being me, I of course said DUH♧! 2020 SEASON PASSES TO CEDAR POINT! They're running some sort of special so even though it's a 2020 pass, it is good for the rest of this year. It has been YEARS since I've been. Do you remember me telling you my tragic roller coaster story from back when I used to be a LOT bigger? Yeah... So anyways, my sister and I decided to take a little impromptu trip to Cedar Point on Saturday. šŸŽ¢ IT. WAS. PACKED. We rode three rides. BUT,

I RODE RIDES! I was so happy to be able to do that again. We waited TWO HOURS for the Millennium Force (my favorite) and it was worth every minute of the wait. What a great feeling. Halloweekends is coming up and I can't be more excited for that either! šŸ‘»šŸŽƒ


Sunday was the Spartan Race. Ahhh! They tell you it's 3 miles long. The lie detector test determined.. That was a lie! LOL. This was 4-4.5 miles long with 20 obstacles - 30 burpees per obstacle that you could not complete. This race really tested my strength and agility. There were so many obstacles (probably all but maybe 2) that I took a look at and said nope, can't do that one! But I tried, and was so wrong. I'm still learning that I am able to do so much more now that I have ever been able to do. Honestly, if Kristena wasn't there to push me through it, I would not have even attempted half of the things that I did (and accomplished).
Also, I want to give a shout out to my trainer - Eddie Brooks, for always keeping me on my toes at the gym and prepping me the best he could for this race. Moving up to the Super next year! Hopefully I won't bruise as much as I did this year. šŸ¤£ I decided to leave those pictures  out, but I look like I got beat up, no lie.
That's all the excitement in my life for now - have a great weekend ya'll!

XOXO, M♡

P.S. The job hunt is still going on. And on, and on. 

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